From Flowers to Felonies

My boyfriend graduated treatment today. He is officially going to start smoking weed again. I...

Thu, 20 Jun 2013 02:47:18 -0400

My boyfriend graduated treatment today. He is officially going to start smoking weed again. I don’t know what to do. Advice?

Can you give me advice on how to discretely get into prostituting. Just like yourself, i need to do it to survive at this point. Please help? Also i have a bf who cannot find out...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 02:19:47 -0400

I just replied to adds on Craigslist for men seeking women. I just talked to people over the phone trough texts, and went out for drinks a few times until I felt comfortable with the person. I only did it twice after I met my boyfriend. Only because I wanted to take him on dates and be able to do nice things for him since he had been doing so much for me at the time. My boyfriend didn’t have a phone at the time and came to my house easy one night while I was “out.” When i got home my boyfriend also enjoyed he outfit i had worn for a customer and fucked me the second i got home. I ended up feeling extremely guilty about it and ended up not leaving bed for a week, constantly in tears.

I would sell everything I owned before I ever put myself through that pain again. I do not recommend this.

But if you must, get some mace, and always let a close friend know where you’re going. Text them license plate numbers, address, phone numbers, ANYTHING to make sure you’ll be safe if something goes wrong.

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Here is the view from the cliff I looked over yesterday!

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 01:11:00 -0400

Here is the view from the cliff I looked over yesterday!

I have lost a total of 25 pounds since I quit using. I hiked 5 miles yesterday through the Columbia...

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 00:57:00 -0400

I have lost a total of 25 pounds since I quit using. I hiked 5 miles yesterday through the Columbia River Gorge. I stood on cliffs higher than I could have imagined myself being while using. Today my Boyfriend and I went to the river, and I had my first public sex experience. It wasn’t jaw dropping, but it was wonderful because it was ours. Dreams do come true. I’m living a healthy, sober lifestyle, and i have zero regrets for choosing this path.

I think it's amazing that your clean. I struggle with the same thing and it's so hard to stay clean, at least for me. A battle everyday. I'm so very proud of you :) keep it up!

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 00:46:11 -0400

It was and is extremely hard to stay clean. I remember when I only have 60 days clean I woke up from a nightmare and realized I had scratched my inner elbow so badly I was bleeding. It’s not a cake walk at any point. People at meetings say things like “you’ll never have to feel that way again.” I don’t believe it. What I do believe is that you will just find better more productive ways to get rid of the pain.

I'm so happy you're doing well babe. xxxx

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 00:42:50 -0400

Thank you! I’m extremely proud of myself. :)

Hiya there one of your followers here:] i love how opened you are about your life in your blog and well your blog in general! Stay strong and dont over think too much in life just smile for today and Good luck with your Boyfriend and being Sober:)

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 00:42:01 -0400

Thank you. :) We’re doing really well right now!

Boyfriends train of thought:

Sat, 08 Jun 2013 23:32:15 -0400

Occupy Monsanto!

Next day: Wow, the weeds are really growing in the back yard, we should get some Roundup.

…. Sometimes….

meditatiom: ॐ ~ peace ~ ॐ

Sat, 08 Jun 2013 21:23:07 -0400

meditatiom:

ॐ ~ peace ~ ॐ

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Sat, 08 Jun 2013 21:21:36 -0400

I wish I didn’t forget he cares about me. I hope I make...

Sat, 08 Jun 2013 21:18:00 -0400

I wish I didn’t forget he cares about me. I hope I make him as happy as he makes me.

You're one of the only people that has been in my shoes. Well the shoes I used to wear. I'm 3 months clean. I read your blog once when I was still getting all loaded up and admired you for your strength. Don't show me the next step to recovery is relapse. Fuck that shit up the ass. And not the good kind either.

Sat, 08 Jun 2013 21:13:24 -0400

Good job! It’s a terrible path to walk, but I’m glad you’re on the right one now. I hope I never relapse, but shit happens. It took me 97 months to COMPLETELY ruin my life but only 6 months to fix it. Stay positive, and leave all useless emotional baggage behind.

are you clean?

Sat, 08 Jun 2013 21:05:52 -0400

Yes. Ill have 6 months in 1 week!

i hope you are doing well! i assume you are since you arent on much haha. why is my gauge of mental health lack of tumblr use?

Sat, 08 Jun 2013 21:05:21 -0400

Haha. It’s so true though! I’m definitely on tumblr more often if I’m depressed or using! I’m doing great besides my manager keeps scheduling me closing shifts then opening shifts. I just want to sleep but I have a final due in less than 48 hours. :(

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Thu, 06 Jun 2013 14:43:06 -0400

meditatiom: ॐ ~ peace ~ ॐ

Wed, 05 Jun 2013 13:15:38 -0400

meditatiom:

ॐ ~ peace ~ ॐ

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